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October 24, 2011

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These are just some of the patchy memories I have, I'm sure I'll recall more. But they all point to things I could find myself doing almost on auto-pilot with my own kids, even more so as I'm writing this and Hannan is next to me working on a puzzle, Buy Motilium No Prescription. It made sense, all the afternoons one-to-one, to get to know each child as an individual. The projects we had made sense too, and some of the most 'prestigious' childcare centers around charge an arm and a leg for these sort of activities.

The interim answer to my question of "What was she thinking?" was that she WAS thinking. She must have, a lot, because I remember seeing a worn copy of Dr Spock's book all over the house. Buy Motilium No Prescription, At the time, I just thought that my parents were Star Trek fans and found it odd that Spock the TV character wrote a book that was so profound, it won a place on the side of the sofa, on the TV, in the bedroom and in the kitchen. It took a few decades and 2 kids for me to realize who Dr Spock was, and how ahead of her time my mother was, considering how mothers who actually read childcare/child psychology are still in the minority even today. All this makes me pine even more for our loss. I had 15 years with her, my siblings had less. As much as it's not good to regret and wonder what could have been, I still wonder - and pray that my own kids never have to.

June 2, 2011

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While I may have a vague idea of what I'm training for, I've started to shush my secondary outer voice (which often tells me that what I find challenging is no big deal to a lot of people) and to listen to my primary inner voice (which tells me to just do it!). There's a lesson in every encounter on how to live your life. You don't have to do it big, because people with big lives at the end of the day did it by focusing on what makes them happy. Or in the case of my big encounter of the day - by doing what is challenging and most importantly, fun.

June 23, 2010

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